Update

So we went in for a checkup today.  Suprisingly we had11 follies...5 left, 6 right.  I was in such a state of shock and happiness that I started cry a little.  The follies ranged from various sizes from 7 to 14 and my E2 Levels 378. The higher follicle number and lower E2 levels is proof of my poor quality...but all we need is one.  They do want my E2 levels to be higher, so I go back on Monday to see where we are and to schedule egg retreival. 


IVF Protocol
Friday April 5 - Start Lupron AM & Lupron/Saizen PM
Saturday April 6 - Lupron AM, Lupron/Saizen PM
Sunday April 7 - Continue Lupron AM, Lupron/Saizen PM and add Gonal-F and Menapur PM
Tuesday April 9 - E2 Level at 109, Continue above
Wednesday - No changes, continue above
Thursday - Continue above
Friday - 11 Follies, E2 Levels 378

Day 3 of Stims Update

I went in to check my E2 levels  at the RE today.  They came back at 109.  The nurse said that they want to see it over 100, so here's to hoping.  So far, the only side effect that I've had from the drugs is just an awful headache on Saturday.  I go back in on Friday to check E2 levels and to do an ultrasound to see how many follicles are growing.


IVF Protocol
Friday April 5 - Start Lupron AM & Lupron/Saizen PM
Saturday April 6 - Lupron AM, Lupron/Saizen PM
Sunday April 7 - Continue Lupron AM, Lupron/Saizen PM and add Gonal-F and Menapur PM
Tuesday April 9 - E2 Level at 109

Get After It

So, DH and I went in this morning for our suppression appointment and guess what, I was fully suppressed! No more cyst...low progesterone/E2 levels. This might really happen.  Some other positive news...my AFC was 8! For someone with such a low AMH level, DH and I were really happy about this.  3 on my right, 5 on my left.  I'm just hoping those suckers will get after it and grow some amazingly beautiful eggs.  I've only had one other AFC count taken (my old RE didn't do them...) and it was around 3. So 8 it is!

Lupron/Saizen start Friday...Stims on Sunday.  We are traveling on Thursday, so it will be a interesting to see how we go about flying and being out and about and a baseball game/wedding with meds. 

See ya later!

So I went back to the RE this week to see if my cyst was gone.  What a relief - IT WAS! I was so terrified that it was still there as I was still having some "cyst-like" pain...but nothing. So this means that we go back next week for our suppression appointment and will start Lupron a week from today and stims a week from Sunday (assuming everything looks great at suppression).  I'm excited but don't want to get too excited because things change and shit happens. But here's to hoping... *Fingers Crossed**

Damn Cyst

Update from yesterday... The nurse called and said that my E2 levels were high at 158 and they like to see it below 50 at this point in our IVF cycle.  So...instead of canceling and delaying this cycle, I'm going in again on Friday to check the cyst size and E2 levels again. They think there is a chance of continuing if everything has dropped.

BUT....

DAMN CYST. I'm sitting here at work and I can feel it on my left ovary. Seriously? What the hell. I know that this cycle is most likely going to be canceled.  I feel like we are only delaying the inevitable. 

When a Heart Breaks

Thanks a lot Pandora. Why the heck would this song show up on my Mumford and Sons station? Completly applies to everything that is going on right now. How can your heart break for something you never had? I feel so lost and so alone. Infertility sucks...a lot. It plays with your emotions and general well-being as a person. I need chocolate and a bottle of wine stat.

"When A Heart Breaks"
By: Ben Rector

I woke up this morning
And I heard the news
I know the pain of a heartbreak
I don't have answers
And neither do you
I know the pain of a heartbreak

This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks

I heard the doctor
But what did he say
I knew I was fine about this time yesterday
I don't need answers
I just need some peace
I just need someone who could help me get some sleep
Who could help me get some sleep

This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks
When a heart breaks
When a heart breaks
Oh, when a heart breaks

This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks

Suppression Appointment

I went in this moring for my suppression appointment. I was so excited going into this...ready to kick everything off.  From learning more about the meds we will be using, to our baseline ultrasound, to everything and anything. I was pumped.

And then - my heart sunk...when they saw a HUGE cyst on my left ovary.  Seriously? Why??? WHY?? I just don't get it.  We already had to wait 3 months for this cycle because of the PGS testing...now we might be delayed or even canceled?

I'm just waiting to hear back on my estrodial levels.  Hopefully they are so low that we can move forward as planned.  Look, I know plans change...it's the nature of the beast that is infertility, but can't I just catch a break?? I'm hoping we will just be delayed a week, but our RE office only does so many IVF with PGS each month...so we might be delayed even longer, depending on their schedules.

To make matters worse - We already have 2 trips planned for April and my sister is getting married next April...so I don't want to do a FET that would have a due date around then.  Seriously. Give me a freaking break.