Saturday, November 22, 2014

13 Weeks

How far along: 13 Weeks

Total weight gain: 6 pounds

Symptoms and Body Changes: My jeans are definitely more snug. And I had my first day of morning sickness. While over the toilet, I kept telling myself "This is worth it, this is worth it" 

Best moment of this week: 
We went in for an appointment at 12w3d and our OB couldn't find a heartbeat on the doppler. So we waited around for 1 1/2 hours to do a sonogram. It was the longest wait of our lives. BUT everything looked perfect and we got to see our jumping jelly bean! It was magical. Also, our genetic testing came back saying the baby is healthy! That's all we could ask for!

Miss anything: Nothing

Food cravings/aversions: Sweets still seem to be on the mind..

Anything making you queasy or sick: 
Not really?

Sleep: Yes, it's becoming more difficult to sleep. I can't really sleep on my stomach anymore, so I'm trying my best with extra pillows between my knees and surrounding my body.

Movement: I think I feel little flutters...but could be gas?

Have you started to show yet: I can definitely tell a change. Still in my regular pants...just tight

Maternity clothes:  Not yet...maybe soon?

Gender: Our doctor wrote it down on a note card (from the genetic testing) and we will find out next week!

Labor signs: Too early

Happy or moody most of the time: Happy, happy, joy, joy! 

Milestones: 
Seeing the arms and legs on the sono! And knowing (but not knowing yet) the sex! 


Looking forward to: Our gender reveal cake next week for Thanksgiving. Yes, I know it's overdone...but it's something I wanted to do 5 years ago before it was so trendy and we even started trying to have a baby. 

Saturday, November 15, 2014

12 Weeks

How far along: 12 Weeks

Total weight gain: A few

Symptoms and Body Changes: I'm still really tired a lot. And my boobs are definitely bigger. Thank you, sports bras!

Best moment of this week: Going in for an ultrasound at 9w6d and seeing the baby. It was amazing and it kept moving every time I talked. Plus I could see all of the arms and legs moving, it was truly amazing! Still, every time we see an ultrasound and she's doing it on my stomach, I still don't think it's me. I just don'e feel pregnant, even though I know I am.

Miss anything: No, not at all. This is worth everything. Even though it doesn't seem real.

Food cravings/aversions: I've still been wanting to catch up on missing all of my gluten. I might have had a few bagels this week.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Same as last week...only when I don't eat for a few hours

Sleep: I was having a harder time sleeping this week and kept waking up every few hours just because.

Movement: Too early

Have you started to show yet: Too early

Maternity clothes:  Too early

Gender: Too early

Labor signs: Too early

Happy or moody most of the time: I'm so very happy, but still nervous. 

Milestones: 
Nothing really.


Looking forward to: We are telling our families next week! Greg messaged me on Thursday "I'm so freaking excited to tell our families" and I couldn't stop smiling. Maybe when we tell them it will seem more real?  We also have our new patient meeting with our OB on Tuesday. I'm looking forward to this to be able to speak with him and hopefully maybe get another ultrasound?!

Saturday, November 8, 2014

11 Weeks

How far along: 11 Weeks

Total weight gain: A few lbs

Symptoms and Body Changes: Nothing new from last week

Best moment of this week: Telling our families! They were all so surprised and we are so blessed by the love and support.

Miss anything: Nope.

Food cravings/aversions: Sweets...and of course all of my regulars in Weatherford. Pizza Place, Yesterday's, La Madelines

Anything making you queasy or sick: No

Sleep: Same as last week

Movement: Too early

Have you started to show yet: Too early

Maternity clothes:  Too early

Gender: Too early

Labor signs: Too early

Happy or moody most of the time: I'm so very happy, but still nervous. 

Milestones: 
Nothing really.


Looking forward to: Telling more family and friends!

Saturday, November 1, 2014

10 Weeks

How far along: 10 Weeks

Total weight gain: None

Symptoms and Body Changes: I'm still really tired a lot. And my boobs are definitely bigger. Thank you, sports bras!

Best moment of this week: Going in for an ultrasound at 9w6d and seeing the baby. It was amazing and it kept moving every time I talked. Plus I could see all of the arms and legs moving, it was truly amazing! Still, every time we see an ultrasound and she's doing it on my stomach, I still don't think it's me. I just don'e feel pregnant, even though I know I am.

Miss anything: No, not at all. This is worth everything. Even though it doesn't seem real.

Food cravings/aversions: I've still been wanting to catch up on missing all of my gluten. I might have had a few bagels this week.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Same as last week...only when I don't eat for a few hours

Sleep: I was having a harder time sleeping this week and kept waking up every few hours just because.

Movement: Too early

Have you started to show yet: Too early

Maternity clothes:  Too early

Gender: Too early

Labor signs: Too early

Happy or moody most of the time: I'm so very happy, but still nervous. 

Milestones: 
Nothing really.


Looking forward to: We are telling our families next week! Greg messaged me on Thursday "I'm so freaking excited to tell our families" and I couldn't stop smiling. Maybe when we tell them it will seem more real?  We also have our new patient meeting with our OB on Tuesday. I'm looking forward to this to be able to speak with him and hopefully maybe get another ultrasound?!


Saturday, October 25, 2014

9 Weeks


How far along: 9 Weeks

Total weight gain: None

Symptoms and Body Changes: I'm so so tired, all of the time.

Best moment of this week: We had to go in for an ultrasound due to some spotting. Everything is fine, but it was still amazing to see the baby. I don't think I'll ever get used to it.  Also, graduating from our RE was both a happy and sad moment. I'm glad that we've moved on, but also sad because I trust them so much and they've gotten us this far. It's like leaving someone behind.

Miss anything: Nope

Food cravings/aversions: GLUTEN...anything I haven't been able to eat the past year with gluten

Anything making you queasy or sick: Only when I don't eat for a few hours

Sleep: Same as past weeks.

Movement: Too early

Have you started to show yet: Too early

Maternity clothes:  Too early

Gender: Too early

Labor signs: Too early

Happy or moody most of the time: Happy

Milestones: 
Nothing this week.

Looking forward to: Telling our families in a few weeks!


Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Graduating from CCRM

What a weird feeling. I just got off the phone with our CCRM nurse with our results from our latest ultrasound and bloodwork...everything looks fabulous so they are officially graduating us to our OB and I cried.

Yes, I cried.

We've been with CCRM for 1 1/2 years and they are the reason we can now say we are pregnant for the first time ever. I'm still in shock and I can't believe it.

What an emotional day that I will never forget.  She said I get to go be a "normal pregnant" woman now.  I never thought I would see this day.

I'm going to miss our CCRM family. Greg and I enjoyed working with the entire staff, especially our nurses and Dr. M.

For anyone struggling with infertility, I would strongly recommend CCRM.

Saturday, October 18, 2014

8 weeks


How far along: 8 weeks

Total weight gain: None

Symptoms and Body Changes: Still having some cramping but that's about it.

Best moment of this week: Nothing really...just cautiously playing the waiting game.

Miss anything: Bread...Dr. M cleared me to start eating gluten again, but I think I'm going to play it safe and wait until after the first trimester.

Food cravings/aversions: Same as before... I haven't really been wanting to eat much at night for dinner, but no real cravings or aversions.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really

Sleep: Same as past weeks.

Movement: Too early

Have you started to show yet: Too early

Maternity clothes:  Too early

Gender: Too early

Labor signs: Too early

Happy or moody most of the time: So very happy...this week was a huge milestone!


Milestones: 
Nothing this week.

Looking forward to: Our 8 week ultrasound appointment. I'll be 8w2d by then. I feel that if everything progressed as it should, then I will feel so much better about it all.  




Saturday, October 11, 2014

7 weeks

How far along: 7 weeks

Total weight gain: None

Symptoms and Body Changes: I have some cramping, but that's normal (from Dr. Google).

Best moment of this week: Seeing our little baby on the ultrasound on Monday was a moment I'll never ever forget.  Measuring perfectly at 6w2d and we saw a flutter of a heartbeat at 121bpm.

Miss anything: All things with gluten. 


Food cravings/aversions: 
I haven't really been wanting to eat much at night for dinner, but no real cravings or aversions.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Greg's heated up chinese didn't smell so great the other night, but does it ever?!

Sleep: Same as past weeks.

Movement: Too early

Have you started to show yet: Too early

Maternity clothes:  Too early

Gender: Too early

Labor signs: Too early

Happy or moody most of the time: So very happy...this week was a huge milestone!


Milestones:
Our first ultrasound! It was amazing and of course, I cried. We've been waiting 4 years for this, and it was such a site to see!

Looking forward to: Our 8 week ultrasound appointment. I feel that if everything progressed as it should, then I will feel so much better about it all.  




Monday, October 6, 2014

1st Ultrasound

Today we went in for our first ultrasound.  It was emotional to say the least. I cried. Of course I cried.  We were able to see the flutter of a heartbeat at 121 bpm and the baby was measuring perfectly at 6w2d. It didn't look like much and I almost felt like Rachel from friends, but it was still amazing.

Saturday, October 4, 2014

6 weeks

How far along: 6 weeks

Total weight gain: None

Symptoms and Body Changes: None

Best moment of this week: Finding out that my Progesterone and Estrogen looked GREAT!

Miss anything: Not at all

Food cravings/aversions: Not really. I don't seem to really want to cook, but hey, that could just be some laziness.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope.

Sleep: I'm sleeping fine even though I have to get up a few times to go to the bathroom, but hey, that's normal for me.

Movement: Too early

Have you started to show yet: Too early

Maternity clothes:  Too early

Gender: Too early

Labor signs: Too early

Happy or moody most of the time: A little more moody and annoyed lately...but hey, sometimes people can be stupid. 


Milestones: 
Getting back my bloodwork that looked great was a huge milestone. So very happy!

Looking forward to: Monday!!! Hopefully we will be able to see a healthy little baby and a heartbeat.  






Saturday, September 27, 2014

5 weeks

How far along: 5 weeks

Total weight gain: None

Symptoms and Body Changes: Nothing really. A bit tired in the evening

Best moment of this week: Finding out that my TSH levels were normal.

Miss anything: Not at all

Food cravings/aversions: Not really.  I was really hungry at work the other day so I went to 7-11 to find something to eat. I ended up getting chocolate milk but when I got back to the office I realized it wasn't sealed. Fail. Other than that, cheese and crackers have been good. And chez cereal.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really. I was a bit queasy last night going to bed, but it could be from hunger.

Sleep: I've been sleeping pretty well, still miss sleeping on my stomach.

Movement: Too early

Have you started to show yet: Too early

Maternity clothes:  Too early

Gender: Too early

Labor signs: Too early

Happy or moody most of the time: So very happy but nervous...there's still a lot that can happen. 


Milestones: 
Nothing really.

Looking forward to: Same as last week...Our first ultrasound at 6 1/2 weeks on 10/6.  With each next step, I feel that I can breath a bit easier.




Saturday, September 20, 2014

4 week update...the size of a poppyseed!

How far along: 4 Weeks

Total weight gain: None, I actually think I've lost a few lbs.

Symptoms and Body Changes: Cramping, twinges, sore boobs, lower back, tired...but it could all be from the amount of estrogen and progesterone I'm on?

Best moment of this week: Getting our first ever positive pregnancy test and getting the news of a strong beta #1 (116) and an even stronger beta #2 (256)!!

Miss anything: No, I'd give up anything for this. It's been 4 years in the making.

Food cravings/aversions: Not really.  I am hungry more often the past week or so.  Last night I couldn't really eat anything, but I don't think it was pregnancy related.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not really. I was a bit queasy last night going to bed, but it could be from hunger.

Sleep: I'm not too excited about not sleeping on my stomach, but hey, whatever works.

Movement: Too early

Have you started to show yet: Too early

Maternity clothes:  Too early

Gender: Too early

Labor signs: Too early

Happy or moody most of the time: We are so very  happy but very emotional.  With 4 years of infertility struggles, you can't help but think of the worst case scenario for everything. We are trying to enjoy this time as it should be one to celebrate, but we don't want to get too far ahead of ourselves. Throughout this entire 3rd IVF cycle, we've been using the term "cautiously optimistic" which will probably be the case until we get through the 1st trimester.

Milestones: Our first EVER positive pregnancy test on 9/16.  And then on 9/17, and then 9/18, and then 9/19...and again tonight on 9/23. Hey, I've never seen a positive test before, so I have to keep checking that it's true.

Looking forward to: Our first ultrasound at 6 1/2 weeks on 10/6.  With each next step, I feel that I can breath a bit easier.


Photo taken on 9/18 at 3 weeks, 5 days.  I guess you could say this is our first photo as a family of 3?  Minus our fur babies of course! And mom, no, I didn't do it on purpose. I really was just pointing at the shirt! 

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

3rd time's a charm!

We are pregnant. Well, I'm technically the one pregnant, but its 143% a WE thing. We've never seen 2 pink lines on a pregnancy test before until now. It still seems too good to be true. Can it be? Is this really happening? Our 3rd IVF did the trick. I feel like our lucky number is 3. 3 embryos from this cycle and it's our 3rd attempt. Wow. I don't know if this will ever sink in...

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Aubrey's Visit to KC

Like I've mentioned before, distractions are good.  This past weekend Greg and I were able to spend time with my cousin, Aubrey.  She flew in to visit us from Houston and we had a blast! It was so much fun having her here, and while we might have spoiled her, I'm pretty sure she had fun too!

We went to Legoland....




And the K-State football game...



And Deanna Rose...











Sunday, July 13, 2014

Hope for IVF #3

Well, we were off to Colorado again for IVF #3 at CCRM during June 2014.  I had been on the CCRM recommended supplements since October 2013 as well as eating gluten free since then (minus a weekend trip to New Orleans for my sister's bachelorette party in January - hey, there's not a lot of GF options at 2AM when you NEED food).

In addition to the supplements and going GF, I also saw an acupunturist for about 8 visits prior to heading out to Colorado and then saw one while we were there in Colorado.  Dr. M also changed our protocols this time around, putting me on minimum drugs.  We are going for quality over quality here. It just takes one. We also decided that we were going to push forward to try and get to blastocyst stage, and not stop on day 3 as we did last time.  If anything makes it to day 5, our chances double!

We ended up retrieving 5 eggs this time around.  So the same as last time.  OR IS IT?

Out of the 5 eggs retrieved, 3 of them were mature and all 3 fertilized with ICSI.  100% fertilization rate? Is that possible? Oh, and then we find out that all 3 made it to day 5 blastocyst stage! During the time from my retrieval to day 5, my grandfather passed aware.  I can't help but think that he was watching over us and helping us along the way.  I felt it.  He was there.  He was looking out for us.

This was the best situation we could ask to be in at this point.  We had 3 frozen day-5 embryos.  2 4AA's and 1 4BA.  This means they are all great quality and we could not be more ecstatic.

Thank you for watching over us, Grandaddy.  You are the reasons we are able to try and have our own biological children and I strongly believe you are the one watching over us during this time as well.



Here are a few photos from our trip to Colorado for the retrieval this time around:









Saturday, June 28, 2014

Cheers, Grandaddy!

My grandfather recently passed away and to say my heart hurts is an understatement. He was truly an amazing man and Greg and I owe so much to him.  We wouldn't be where we are today without his love and support and it aches me to know he will never be able to meet our children.

I do know he is watching over us as we were able to get some amazing news about our embryos soon after his passing, but it doesn't take away the pain of loss.

Love you Granddaddy. Cheers!

On his 90th birthday

With is beloved dog, Susie!

With his four granddaughters on Christmas 

Back in high school

His wedding photo with my grandmommy, Wanda. 

His high school portrait.

The last photo Greg and I have with him. I'm so thankful for all of the time we were able to spend together. 







Monday, May 19, 2014

Down by the Bayou

This past weekend we went to the wedding of my dad's wife's son in Louisiana. I've driven through Louisiana before, but I don't remember much of it. 

We had a lot of fun! The venue was gorgeous and the reception was a blast. And talk about amazing food! 




Tuesday, April 15, 2014

My little sister is MARRIED!

Through all of the pain of struggling with infertility, I'm so glad to have distractions.  A big distraction lately has been my little sister's wedding. I can't believe she is finally married. The wedding was completely perfect and I wish we could do it all over again. Okay, maybe I could pass on the tying the tulle to Christmas lights, but everything else I would do again!


I'm so proud of the woman she has become.  She's truly an inspiration and such a support to me. 


Greg and I on the dance floor.

The Bridge and Groom's first dance. 

Only the best cake topper out there!



Part 1 of my Matron of Honor Speech



Part 2 of my Matron of Honor Speech

Saturday, March 1, 2014

Our Infertility History...

Since I haven't updated in awhile, I wanted to provide a brief history of our infertility struggles.

We've been trying to conceive since the beginning of November 2010.  I'm currently 28 and my husband is 30.  I always had a feeling I would have trouble having kids, but you never really truly think that it will be you.  After a year of trying on our own, we decided to seek the help of our OB (big mistake) since she told me I wasn't ovulating. Not true.  She just didn't know I was a late ovulator.  Thanks to the push of some family, we decided to move on to a fertility specialist.

All of the initial tests came back normal so we were diagnosed as unexplained with possible endometriosis.  We moved forward with 5 medicated timed intercourse cycles and a 3 IUI.s (5 rounds of clomid 50mg-150mg and 3 rounds of femara 5mg) but nothing worked.  We had laproscopic surgery for the endometriosis in July 2012 where our doctor at the time found out that I had stage II endo and removed a polyp. One of our medicated IUI's was after this.

After doing some research online, I realized that I never had me AMH or FSH tested, which determine ovarian reserve.  I strongly suggested that I have these simple bloodtests but my doctor said I was too young (27 at the time) and I didn't need to worry about it.  After hounding them with calls, I was finally able to get the blood tests in November 2012.  Finally, we have answers.  We found out that my AMH was .23 (super low) and my FSH was 11.1 (a bit high).  I had to fight for this with our doctor but I was so glad we had answers.  Time for a second opinion now that all trust was lost...

We moved on to our 2nd doctor who recommended we move on to IVF right away.  Hey, we were on board with whatever would help us get pregnant.  I was officially diagnosed as severe DOR.  Basically, my eggs were fried and there aren't many of them left.

So we had plans to move forward with IVF #1 in March 2013 but I had a huge cyst so it was delayed.

We started IVF#1 in April 2013, around the same time we had a huge project/change at work. We were able to retrieve 9 eggs, 4 of them were mature and 2 of fertilized with ICSI.  We were looking to do genetic testing on any that reached day 5, but both stopped dividing on day 3.  We were devastated. You think IVF is the answer when in reality, it's not. Our doctor recommended that we move to donor egg, but we weren't quite ready for that yet.  I also requested that we retest my AMH which was no undetectable at <.16. Awesome. Just what we wanted to hear.

So we took some time to think about what we wanted to do next.  We decided to go to one of the best clinics in the country at CCRM out in Denver, Colorado.  We did a 1 day regroup in June 2013 and started with IVF #2 in July/August 2013. We also retested AMH which was now up .3. Hey, that's good news...maybe it was the acupuncture I've been doing?  I was on maximum drugs at this point, trying to get as many eggs as possible.  We ended up retrieving 5 eggs, 2 of them mature.  2 more ended up maturing over night and one of each of those ended up getting fertilized with ICSI.  We decided to freeze both embryos on day 3. We had a 7-cell with 10% fragmentation and a 4-cell with 15% fragmentation.

We went back to Colorado in October 2013 for a frozen embryo transfer where we transferred both day 3 embryos.  We were hopeful but we also knew that these weren't the best quality.  Needless to say, we were devastated to find out that neither took.  Our doctor truly believed that it was just egg quality issues and recommended that we try again with a different protocol, with minimal stims.  She also recommended I be on the CCRM recommended supplements for 6 months as well as going gluten free.  Hey, at this point, I'll try anything.   We plan to go back to CCRM in 2014 for IVF #3.



Friday, January 31, 2014

Magsorette...New Orleans Style

My first trip to New Orleans was a success! I had so much fun for my little sisters Bachelorette Party while there and got to experience a new city! My favorite part was probably how low key everything was.  And the food was pretty amazing. 

My little sister, the bride-to -be!

Shark Attack...my niece loved that I brought her home the shark to play with.  She was so surprised! 

You can't go to New Orleans and not go to Cafe Du Monde.  Honestly, I didn't see the big deal, but I'm glad I went!


The four cousins on the trip!

Barrett and Samuel. They made the trip.

The big group!