What a weird feeling. I just got off the phone with our CCRM nurse with our results from our latest ultrasound and bloodwork...everything looks fabulous so they are officially graduating us to our OB and I cried.
Yes, I cried.
We've been with CCRM for 1 1/2 years and they are the reason we can now say we are pregnant for the first time ever. I'm still in shock and I can't believe it.
What an emotional day that I will never forget. She said I get to go be a "normal pregnant" woman now. I never thought I would see this day.
I'm going to miss our CCRM family. Greg and I enjoyed working with the entire staff, especially our nurses and Dr. M.
For anyone struggling with infertility, I would strongly recommend CCRM.
Showing posts with label IVF. Show all posts
Showing posts with label IVF. Show all posts
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Hope for IVF #3
Well, we were off to Colorado again for IVF #3 at CCRM during June 2014. I had been on the CCRM recommended supplements since October 2013 as well as eating gluten free since then (minus a weekend trip to New Orleans for my sister's bachelorette party in January - hey, there's not a lot of GF options at 2AM when you NEED food).
In addition to the supplements and going GF, I also saw an acupunturist for about 8 visits prior to heading out to Colorado and then saw one while we were there in Colorado. Dr. M also changed our protocols this time around, putting me on minimum drugs. We are going for quality over quality here. It just takes one. We also decided that we were going to push forward to try and get to blastocyst stage, and not stop on day 3 as we did last time. If anything makes it to day 5, our chances double!
We ended up retrieving 5 eggs this time around. So the same as last time. OR IS IT?
Out of the 5 eggs retrieved, 3 of them were mature and all 3 fertilized with ICSI. 100% fertilization rate? Is that possible? Oh, and then we find out that all 3 made it to day 5 blastocyst stage! During the time from my retrieval to day 5, my grandfather passed aware. I can't help but think that he was watching over us and helping us along the way. I felt it. He was there. He was looking out for us.
This was the best situation we could ask to be in at this point. We had 3 frozen day-5 embryos. 2 4AA's and 1 4BA. This means they are all great quality and we could not be more ecstatic.
Thank you for watching over us, Grandaddy. You are the reasons we are able to try and have our own biological children and I strongly believe you are the one watching over us during this time as well.
Here are a few photos from our trip to Colorado for the retrieval this time around:
In addition to the supplements and going GF, I also saw an acupunturist for about 8 visits prior to heading out to Colorado and then saw one while we were there in Colorado. Dr. M also changed our protocols this time around, putting me on minimum drugs. We are going for quality over quality here. It just takes one. We also decided that we were going to push forward to try and get to blastocyst stage, and not stop on day 3 as we did last time. If anything makes it to day 5, our chances double!
We ended up retrieving 5 eggs this time around. So the same as last time. OR IS IT?
This was the best situation we could ask to be in at this point. We had 3 frozen day-5 embryos. 2 4AA's and 1 4BA. This means they are all great quality and we could not be more ecstatic.
Thank you for watching over us, Grandaddy. You are the reasons we are able to try and have our own biological children and I strongly believe you are the one watching over us during this time as well.
Here are a few photos from our trip to Colorado for the retrieval this time around:
Saturday, March 1, 2014
Our Infertility History...
Since I haven't updated in awhile, I wanted to provide a brief history of our infertility struggles.
We've been trying to conceive since the beginning of November 2010. I'm currently 28 and my husband is 30. I always had a feeling I would have trouble having kids, but you never really truly think that it will be you. After a year of trying on our own, we decided to seek the help of our OB (big mistake) since she told me I wasn't ovulating. Not true. She just didn't know I was a late ovulator. Thanks to the push of some family, we decided to move on to a fertility specialist.
All of the initial tests came back normal so we were diagnosed as unexplained with possible endometriosis. We moved forward with 5 medicated timed intercourse cycles and a 3 IUI.s (5 rounds of clomid 50mg-150mg and 3 rounds of femara 5mg) but nothing worked. We had laproscopic surgery for the endometriosis in July 2012 where our doctor at the time found out that I had stage II endo and removed a polyp. One of our medicated IUI's was after this.
After doing some research online, I realized that I never had me AMH or FSH tested, which determine ovarian reserve. I strongly suggested that I have these simple bloodtests but my doctor said I was too young (27 at the time) and I didn't need to worry about it. After hounding them with calls, I was finally able to get the blood tests in November 2012. Finally, we have answers. We found out that my AMH was .23 (super low) and my FSH was 11.1 (a bit high). I had to fight for this with our doctor but I was so glad we had answers. Time for a second opinion now that all trust was lost...
We moved on to our 2nd doctor who recommended we move on to IVF right away. Hey, we were on board with whatever would help us get pregnant. I was officially diagnosed as severe DOR. Basically, my eggs were fried and there aren't many of them left.
So we had plans to move forward with IVF #1 in March 2013 but I had a huge cyst so it was delayed.
We started IVF#1 in April 2013, around the same time we had a huge project/change at work. We were able to retrieve 9 eggs, 4 of them were mature and 2 of fertilized with ICSI. We were looking to do genetic testing on any that reached day 5, but both stopped dividing on day 3. We were devastated. You think IVF is the answer when in reality, it's not. Our doctor recommended that we move to donor egg, but we weren't quite ready for that yet. I also requested that we retest my AMH which was no undetectable at <.16. Awesome. Just what we wanted to hear.
So we took some time to think about what we wanted to do next. We decided to go to one of the best clinics in the country at CCRM out in Denver, Colorado. We did a 1 day regroup in June 2013 and started with IVF #2 in July/August 2013. We also retested AMH which was now up .3. Hey, that's good news...maybe it was the acupuncture I've been doing? I was on maximum drugs at this point, trying to get as many eggs as possible. We ended up retrieving 5 eggs, 2 of them mature. 2 more ended up maturing over night and one of each of those ended up getting fertilized with ICSI. We decided to freeze both embryos on day 3. We had a 7-cell with 10% fragmentation and a 4-cell with 15% fragmentation.
We went back to Colorado in October 2013 for a frozen embryo transfer where we transferred both day 3 embryos. We were hopeful but we also knew that these weren't the best quality. Needless to say, we were devastated to find out that neither took. Our doctor truly believed that it was just egg quality issues and recommended that we try again with a different protocol, with minimal stims. She also recommended I be on the CCRM recommended supplements for 6 months as well as going gluten free. Hey, at this point, I'll try anything. We plan to go back to CCRM in 2014 for IVF #3.
We've been trying to conceive since the beginning of November 2010. I'm currently 28 and my husband is 30. I always had a feeling I would have trouble having kids, but you never really truly think that it will be you. After a year of trying on our own, we decided to seek the help of our OB (big mistake) since she told me I wasn't ovulating. Not true. She just didn't know I was a late ovulator. Thanks to the push of some family, we decided to move on to a fertility specialist.
All of the initial tests came back normal so we were diagnosed as unexplained with possible endometriosis. We moved forward with 5 medicated timed intercourse cycles and a 3 IUI.s (5 rounds of clomid 50mg-150mg and 3 rounds of femara 5mg) but nothing worked. We had laproscopic surgery for the endometriosis in July 2012 where our doctor at the time found out that I had stage II endo and removed a polyp. One of our medicated IUI's was after this.
After doing some research online, I realized that I never had me AMH or FSH tested, which determine ovarian reserve. I strongly suggested that I have these simple bloodtests but my doctor said I was too young (27 at the time) and I didn't need to worry about it. After hounding them with calls, I was finally able to get the blood tests in November 2012. Finally, we have answers. We found out that my AMH was .23 (super low) and my FSH was 11.1 (a bit high). I had to fight for this with our doctor but I was so glad we had answers. Time for a second opinion now that all trust was lost...
We moved on to our 2nd doctor who recommended we move on to IVF right away. Hey, we were on board with whatever would help us get pregnant. I was officially diagnosed as severe DOR. Basically, my eggs were fried and there aren't many of them left.
So we had plans to move forward with IVF #1 in March 2013 but I had a huge cyst so it was delayed.
We started IVF#1 in April 2013, around the same time we had a huge project/change at work. We were able to retrieve 9 eggs, 4 of them were mature and 2 of fertilized with ICSI. We were looking to do genetic testing on any that reached day 5, but both stopped dividing on day 3. We were devastated. You think IVF is the answer when in reality, it's not. Our doctor recommended that we move to donor egg, but we weren't quite ready for that yet. I also requested that we retest my AMH which was no undetectable at <.16. Awesome. Just what we wanted to hear.
So we took some time to think about what we wanted to do next. We decided to go to one of the best clinics in the country at CCRM out in Denver, Colorado. We did a 1 day regroup in June 2013 and started with IVF #2 in July/August 2013. We also retested AMH which was now up .3. Hey, that's good news...maybe it was the acupuncture I've been doing? I was on maximum drugs at this point, trying to get as many eggs as possible. We ended up retrieving 5 eggs, 2 of them mature. 2 more ended up maturing over night and one of each of those ended up getting fertilized with ICSI. We decided to freeze both embryos on day 3. We had a 7-cell with 10% fragmentation and a 4-cell with 15% fragmentation.
We went back to Colorado in October 2013 for a frozen embryo transfer where we transferred both day 3 embryos. We were hopeful but we also knew that these weren't the best quality. Needless to say, we were devastated to find out that neither took. Our doctor truly believed that it was just egg quality issues and recommended that we try again with a different protocol, with minimal stims. She also recommended I be on the CCRM recommended supplements for 6 months as well as going gluten free. Hey, at this point, I'll try anything. We plan to go back to CCRM in 2014 for IVF #3.
Thursday, October 31, 2013
CCRM & IVF #2 Update
So we've been taking a complete break from all things infertility related. To catch you up to date:
We had our one day work up with CCRM in Colorado back in June 2013.
We had our one day work up with CCRM in Colorado back in June 2013.
Everything looked great except for...dun dun dun...my ovarian reserve. We decided to move forward with an IVF at CCRM at the end of July 2013/August 2013.
We ended up with retrieving 5 eggs with only 2 mature at that time. 2 more matured over night and one of each fertilized with ICSI. We froze both embies on day 3...One was a 7-cell with 10% fragmentation and 4-cell with 15% fragmentation.
Here's a few pictures from our trip to Colorado. While there with our retrieval, we were able to do some exploring with Albert and Daisie.
With neither embryo being super great quality, and day 3 at that, we decided to transfer both in October. Unfortunately, neither one took. Dr. M thinks it was due to quality (not a big surprise there) and wanted to regroup to figure out a plan next.
Talk about devastation. This was such a difficult time for us, but we weren't giving up hope. After regrouping with Dr. M, we decided we were going to try again with my own eggs before even considering donar egg or embryo adoption. She recommended we try again at least 6 months from now and suggested I get on a slue of supplements/meds while going gluten free. Hey, whatever it takes.
So, here we are. In a position of disappointment but we haven't given up hope. We have age on our side. We have hope on our side. We have faith on our side. Here's to round #3...
We ended up with retrieving 5 eggs with only 2 mature at that time. 2 more matured over night and one of each fertilized with ICSI. We froze both embies on day 3...One was a 7-cell with 10% fragmentation and 4-cell with 15% fragmentation.
Here's a few pictures from our trip to Colorado. While there with our retrieval, we were able to do some exploring with Albert and Daisie.
With neither embryo being super great quality, and day 3 at that, we decided to transfer both in October. Unfortunately, neither one took. Dr. M thinks it was due to quality (not a big surprise there) and wanted to regroup to figure out a plan next.
Talk about devastation. This was such a difficult time for us, but we weren't giving up hope. After regrouping with Dr. M, we decided we were going to try again with my own eggs before even considering donar egg or embryo adoption. She recommended we try again at least 6 months from now and suggested I get on a slue of supplements/meds while going gluten free. Hey, whatever it takes.
So, here we are. In a position of disappointment but we haven't given up hope. We have age on our side. We have hope on our side. We have faith on our side. Here's to round #3...
Friday, May 17, 2013
A plan is never a plan
I haven't updated in a while. It's been a rough few weeks. With our first failed IVF, well I don't even know if it would be qualified as a full IVF because we never made it to freeze/transfer...and then some news from friends, mother's day and a recent test, it's been a whirlwind.
So here's what's happening:
Our 2 embies stopped dividing on day 3, so we didn't make it to transfer as I previously published. DH and I were so ready to just take a break and do something for ourselves. We talked to our best friends about going to Vegas in July...they were in! Awesome! We just wanted to get away from everything, take a break and spend time together. Well..about 5 days after we booked the Vegas trip, my friend wrote me an email to tell me she was pregnant. Not planned at all, obviously. While my heart sunk and I was in shock, I can say that I am happy for her. She knows everything we are going through and was so worried about how we would react. That's how you know she is a true friend. So...Vegas is a no go.
I decided to call my RE and get my AMH retested before we went in for our WTF appointment. I was thinking to myself...I've been on all of these supplements for 6 months, it has to have gone up. No, I was wrong. Dead wrong. My AMH (which measures ovarian reserve) is now undetectable at <.16. WHAT???? HOW??? Such devastating news. I had a major breakdown thinking that I was probably at the end of the road of having my own biological children. When we met with your RE, she suggested that we move to Donar Egg, but said she would do it again with my own eggs if that is what we wanted. She wouldn't change our protocol, which made me question if we should get a second opinion.
So that's where we are today. It was so fast, our plan is a 180 from what we had planned...taking a break and going to Vegas over the summer.
I'm happy to say that we have a phone consult with Dr. Minjarez at CCRM next week. This is the best clinic in the country and I have all the confidence in the world that if we can get pregnant with my own eggs, it will be through them. I'm curious what they say and what they will recommend as far as protocol. Thanks to the ladies of TB for all of your help and advice!
So here's what's happening:
Our 2 embies stopped dividing on day 3, so we didn't make it to transfer as I previously published. DH and I were so ready to just take a break and do something for ourselves. We talked to our best friends about going to Vegas in July...they were in! Awesome! We just wanted to get away from everything, take a break and spend time together. Well..about 5 days after we booked the Vegas trip, my friend wrote me an email to tell me she was pregnant. Not planned at all, obviously. While my heart sunk and I was in shock, I can say that I am happy for her. She knows everything we are going through and was so worried about how we would react. That's how you know she is a true friend. So...Vegas is a no go.
I decided to call my RE and get my AMH retested before we went in for our WTF appointment. I was thinking to myself...I've been on all of these supplements for 6 months, it has to have gone up. No, I was wrong. Dead wrong. My AMH (which measures ovarian reserve) is now undetectable at <.16. WHAT???? HOW??? Such devastating news. I had a major breakdown thinking that I was probably at the end of the road of having my own biological children. When we met with your RE, she suggested that we move to Donar Egg, but said she would do it again with my own eggs if that is what we wanted. She wouldn't change our protocol, which made me question if we should get a second opinion.
So that's where we are today. It was so fast, our plan is a 180 from what we had planned...taking a break and going to Vegas over the summer.
I'm happy to say that we have a phone consult with Dr. Minjarez at CCRM next week. This is the best clinic in the country and I have all the confidence in the world that if we can get pregnant with my own eggs, it will be through them. I'm curious what they say and what they will recommend as far as protocol. Thanks to the ladies of TB for all of your help and advice!
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Beyond words
Today has been on of the most trying days of my life. We found out that out 2 embryos stopped dividing at day 3 so there is a 99% chance we won't make it to day 5/6 for testing.
No words is an understatement. How? Why?
I think the only thing that kept me going was the fact that I had a super busy day at work and it was a 15 hour work day at that. But I haven't had a chance to grieve. And DH...poor DH. He doesn't cry often but I could just see it break him when we finally got home from our long days and we were able to process this news together...in the same room.
I can't sleep. I can't eat. I just don't know what to do.
Oh and to place a big FU in my face, 3 pregnancy announcements on Facebook and a baby shower invite in the mail. How do you like that? Just in case you weren't having a bad day already, I just wanted to make sure.
Life is so freaking unfair. I said to DH tonight....'what did we do to deserve this' and his response was... 'Nothing and that's why it hurts so much'
And now I'm debating on whether or not to post something on Facebook about national infertility awareness week. Perfect timing, eh? While its a private matter, I'm so tired of the ignorance and stupidity of people. If only they knew the struggles of what others are going through.
It's 12:30 am and I can't sleep. I don't know what to do. Beyond words.
No words is an understatement. How? Why?
I think the only thing that kept me going was the fact that I had a super busy day at work and it was a 15 hour work day at that. But I haven't had a chance to grieve. And DH...poor DH. He doesn't cry often but I could just see it break him when we finally got home from our long days and we were able to process this news together...in the same room.
I can't sleep. I can't eat. I just don't know what to do.
Oh and to place a big FU in my face, 3 pregnancy announcements on Facebook and a baby shower invite in the mail. How do you like that? Just in case you weren't having a bad day already, I just wanted to make sure.
Life is so freaking unfair. I said to DH tonight....'what did we do to deserve this' and his response was... 'Nothing and that's why it hurts so much'
And now I'm debating on whether or not to post something on Facebook about national infertility awareness week. Perfect timing, eh? While its a private matter, I'm so tired of the ignorance and stupidity of people. If only they knew the struggles of what others are going through.
It's 12:30 am and I can't sleep. I don't know what to do. Beyond words.
Friday, April 19, 2013
Heart wrenching update
Out of the 9 eggs, 4 were mature and only 2 fertilized with ICSI. DH and I are devastated and know our chances of making it to day 5 or 6 freeze for PGS testing is super slim. Not the greatest feeling in the world. Just going to try to make it through the weekend without falling apart.
Egg Retrieval
Yesterday was our egg retrival. Everything went as well as expected. The RE told DH they got 9 eggs, so I'm just waiting today to get the call to tell us how many were mature and how many fertilized. I was so happy when DH told me the number in the recovery room.
I'm doing well. I spent most of the day yesterday sleeping. Today I'm lounging around working from home. I'm feeling pretty bloated and uncomfortable, but nothing too bad. I'll update later once I hear from the RE...
I'm doing well. I spent most of the day yesterday sleeping. Today I'm lounging around working from home. I'm feeling pretty bloated and uncomfortable, but nothing too bad. I'll update later once I hear from the RE...
Monday, April 15, 2013
Yes another Update
DH and I went in this morning to check follicle growth and E2 levels. I had about 10 follies growing...ranging from 21mm to 11mm. The nurse wanted to present all of my info to the RE to determine whether our ER would be on Wednesday or Thursday of this week.
So...I just heard back and it looks like we will be doing our retreival on Thursday. They want to give some of those 15mm range follies a chance to catch up, hoping we will be able to retreive more eggs to send off for PGS testing. Also in good news...my E2 levels jumped up to 1583! I'm extremely happy with this as the E2 levels can show egg quality. I just hope everything keeps moving along. One last round of stims tonight and we will trigger sometime tomorrow evening most likely. Yay!
So...I just heard back and it looks like we will be doing our retreival on Thursday. They want to give some of those 15mm range follies a chance to catch up, hoping we will be able to retreive more eggs to send off for PGS testing. Also in good news...my E2 levels jumped up to 1583! I'm extremely happy with this as the E2 levels can show egg quality. I just hope everything keeps moving along. One last round of stims tonight and we will trigger sometime tomorrow evening most likely. Yay!
Friday, April 12, 2013
Update
So we went in for a checkup today. Suprisingly we had11 follies...5 left, 6 right. I was in such a state of shock and happiness that I started cry a little. The follies ranged from various sizes from 7 to 14 and my E2 Levels 378. The higher follicle number and lower E2 levels is proof of my poor quality...but all we need is one. They do want my E2 levels to be higher, so I go back on Monday to see where we are and to schedule egg retreival.
IVF Protocol
Friday April 5 - Start Lupron AM & Lupron/Saizen PM
Saturday April 6 - Lupron AM, Lupron/Saizen PM
Sunday April 7 - Continue Lupron AM, Lupron/Saizen PM and add Gonal-F and Menapur PM
Tuesday April 9 - E2 Level at 109, Continue above
Wednesday - No changes, continue above
Thursday - Continue above
Friday - 11 Follies, E2 Levels 378
IVF Protocol
Friday April 5 - Start Lupron AM & Lupron/Saizen PM
Saturday April 6 - Lupron AM, Lupron/Saizen PM
Sunday April 7 - Continue Lupron AM, Lupron/Saizen PM and add Gonal-F and Menapur PM
Tuesday April 9 - E2 Level at 109, Continue above
Wednesday - No changes, continue above
Thursday - Continue above
Friday - 11 Follies, E2 Levels 378
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Day 3 of Stims Update
I went in to check my E2 levels at the RE today. They came back at 109. The nurse said that they want to see it over 100, so here's to hoping. So far, the only side effect that I've had from the drugs is just an awful headache on Saturday. I go back in on Friday to check E2 levels and to do an ultrasound to see how many follicles are growing.
IVF Protocol
Friday April 5 - Start Lupron AM & Lupron/Saizen PM
Saturday April 6 - Lupron AM, Lupron/Saizen PM
Sunday April 7 - Continue Lupron AM, Lupron/Saizen PM and add Gonal-F and Menapur PM
Tuesday April 9 - E2 Level at 109
IVF Protocol
Friday April 5 - Start Lupron AM & Lupron/Saizen PM
Saturday April 6 - Lupron AM, Lupron/Saizen PM
Sunday April 7 - Continue Lupron AM, Lupron/Saizen PM and add Gonal-F and Menapur PM
Tuesday April 9 - E2 Level at 109
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Get After It
So, DH and I went in this morning for our suppression appointment and guess what, I was fully suppressed! No more cyst...low progesterone/E2 levels. This might really happen. Some other positive news...my AFC was 8! For someone with such a low AMH level, DH and I were really happy about this. 3 on my right, 5 on my left. I'm just hoping those suckers will get after it and grow some amazingly beautiful eggs. I've only had one other AFC count taken (my old RE didn't do them...) and it was around 3. So 8 it is!
Lupron/Saizen start Friday...Stims on Sunday. We are traveling on Thursday, so it will be a interesting to see how we go about flying and being out and about and a baseball game/wedding with meds.
Lupron/Saizen start Friday...Stims on Sunday. We are traveling on Thursday, so it will be a interesting to see how we go about flying and being out and about and a baseball game/wedding with meds.
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
See ya later!
So I went back to the RE this week to see if my cyst was gone. What a relief - IT WAS! I was so terrified that it was still there as I was still having some "cyst-like" pain...but nothing. So this means that we go back next week for our suppression appointment and will start Lupron a week from today and stims a week from Sunday (assuming everything looks great at suppression). I'm excited but don't want to get too excited because things change and shit happens. But here's to hoping... *Fingers Crossed**
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
Damn Cyst
Update from yesterday... The nurse called and said that my E2 levels were high at 158 and they like to see it below 50 at this point in our IVF cycle. So...instead of canceling and delaying this cycle, I'm going in again on Friday to check the cyst size and E2 levels again. They think there is a chance of continuing if everything has dropped.
BUT....
DAMN CYST. I'm sitting here at work and I can feel it on my left ovary. Seriously? What the hell. I know that this cycle is most likely going to be canceled. I feel like we are only delaying the inevitable.
BUT....
DAMN CYST. I'm sitting here at work and I can feel it on my left ovary. Seriously? What the hell. I know that this cycle is most likely going to be canceled. I feel like we are only delaying the inevitable.
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
When a Heart Breaks
Thanks a lot Pandora. Why the heck would this song show up on my Mumford and Sons station? Completly applies to everything that is going on right now. How can your heart break for something you never had? I feel so lost and so alone. Infertility sucks...a lot. It plays with your emotions and general well-being as a person. I need chocolate and a bottle of wine stat.
"When A Heart Breaks"
By: Ben Rector
"When A Heart Breaks"
By: Ben Rector
I woke up this morning
And I heard the news
I know the pain of a heartbreak
I don't have answers
And neither do you
I know the pain of a heartbreak
This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks
I heard the doctor
But what did he say
I knew I was fine about this time yesterday
I don't need answers
I just need some peace
I just need someone who could help me get some sleep
Who could help me get some sleep
This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks
When a heart breaks
When a heart breaks
Oh, when a heart breaks
This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks
And I heard the news
I know the pain of a heartbreak
I don't have answers
And neither do you
I know the pain of a heartbreak
This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks
I heard the doctor
But what did he say
I knew I was fine about this time yesterday
I don't need answers
I just need some peace
I just need someone who could help me get some sleep
Who could help me get some sleep
This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks
When a heart breaks
When a heart breaks
Oh, when a heart breaks
This isn't easy
This isn't clear
And you don't need Jesus
Til you're here
Then confusion and the doubts you had
Up and walk away
They walk away
When a heart breaks
Suppression Appointment
I went in this moring for my suppression appointment. I was so excited going into this...ready to kick everything off. From learning more about the meds we will be using, to our baseline ultrasound, to everything and anything. I was pumped.
And then - my heart sunk...when they saw a HUGE cyst on my left ovary. Seriously? Why??? WHY?? I just don't get it. We already had to wait 3 months for this cycle because of the PGS testing...now we might be delayed or even canceled?
I'm just waiting to hear back on my estrodial levels. Hopefully they are so low that we can move forward as planned. Look, I know plans change...it's the nature of the beast that is infertility, but can't I just catch a break?? I'm hoping we will just be delayed a week, but our RE office only does so many IVF with PGS each month...so we might be delayed even longer, depending on their schedules.
To make matters worse - We already have 2 trips planned for April and my sister is getting married next April...so I don't want to do a FET that would have a due date around then. Seriously. Give me a freaking break.
And then - my heart sunk...when they saw a HUGE cyst on my left ovary. Seriously? Why??? WHY?? I just don't get it. We already had to wait 3 months for this cycle because of the PGS testing...now we might be delayed or even canceled?
I'm just waiting to hear back on my estrodial levels. Hopefully they are so low that we can move forward as planned. Look, I know plans change...it's the nature of the beast that is infertility, but can't I just catch a break?? I'm hoping we will just be delayed a week, but our RE office only does so many IVF with PGS each month...so we might be delayed even longer, depending on their schedules.
To make matters worse - We already have 2 trips planned for April and my sister is getting married next April...so I don't want to do a FET that would have a due date around then. Seriously. Give me a freaking break.
Monday, February 25, 2013
BCP...Let's go!
Our IVF cycle that is. I started on BCP pills yesterday along side baby aspirin. I'm so glad we are finally at the point where we are in the actual cycle where our egg retrieval will happen. Nervous? Yes...but excited nonetheless.
I'm trying my hardest not to let IF consume me right now. I know the 10 days we will be doing stims are going to be hard, especially with everything going on at work.
Suppression Appointment is on Tuesday. Let's get this show on the road!
I'm trying my hardest not to let IF consume me right now. I know the 10 days we will be doing stims are going to be hard, especially with everything going on at work.
Suppression Appointment is on Tuesday. Let's get this show on the road!
Thursday, February 21, 2013
And so it begins...
Aunt flow came last night! Here we go...officially starting our IVF cycle. I'm nervous...scared...excited...anxious...and so much more. Mostly, I'm excited we are finally at this point and moving forward. For the past 3 months I've felt like we were in standstill waiting for this to get rolling.
In other news...working from home today because of Winter Storm Q. I'll be wearing my PJs all day. Good thing I stocked up on chili makings and hot cocoa....as did everyone in the area. The grocery store was a madhouse yesterday.
This pic was taking about 2 hours ago. We have twice as much snow now.
In other news...working from home today because of Winter Storm Q. I'll be wearing my PJs all day. Good thing I stocked up on chili makings and hot cocoa....as did everyone in the area. The grocery store was a madhouse yesterday.
This pic was taking about 2 hours ago. We have twice as much snow now.
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Stress and IF
I can feel the amount of stress I'm going to have over the next few months starting now. With our retrieval in March and the launch of a new site at work, I really don't know how I'm going to manage it. DH warned me about this when we took the IVF step a few months ago, knowing the timing couldn't have been worse. We can't postpone because we don't know when I could be releasing my last eggs....ever month counts. Ehhh....I need a massage stat to help me relax.
Monday, December 31, 2012
IVF Protocol
So here it is. With the start of my period today...we are ready to go with starting the IVF process and our calendar.
Since we are doing IVF with PGS, there are only so many spots available at our clinic each month. We had to push everything off a month, so here's our plan...
Been on a slew of vitamins since 12/1/2012 - DHEA, Vitamin B, C, D, LCartine, Co-Q, Fish Oil, Prenatal (this one for 2+ years)...
12/31/2012 - Period Arrives
1/1/2013 - Start 4mg Estrace
2/11/2013 - Begin 10mg Provera daily for 7 days
2/17/2013 - Stop Estrace/Provera
2/22/2013 - If no period, call. Begin BCP
3/05/2013 - Last BCP
3/05/2012 - Supression ultrasound and blood tests
3/07/2013 - DH and I take Z-Pak
3/08/2013 - Begin Dexamethasone, continue prenatal and start baby aspirin daily
3/08/2013 - Begin Microdos Lupron 10 Units, 12 hours apart
3/10/2013 - Begin Fertility Drug/Dosage
3/10/2013 - Begin Injections of Saizen 23 units (Growth Hormone)
3/12/2013 - Day 3 Labs
3/15/2013 - Day 6 Labs and Scan
3/18/2013 - Day 9/10 Labs and Scan
3/20/2013 - 3/22/2013 - Tentative ER
IVF with ICSI
Send off for PGS testing. FX!! FET 6-8 weeks later.
So there it is. I know plans change...but it feels good to have something down and in writing. :)
Since we are doing IVF with PGS, there are only so many spots available at our clinic each month. We had to push everything off a month, so here's our plan...
Been on a slew of vitamins since 12/1/2012 - DHEA, Vitamin B, C, D, LCartine, Co-Q, Fish Oil, Prenatal (this one for 2+ years)...
12/31/2012 - Period Arrives
1/1/2013 - Start 4mg Estrace
2/11/2013 - Begin 10mg Provera daily for 7 days
2/17/2013 - Stop Estrace/Provera
2/22/2013 - If no period, call. Begin BCP
3/05/2013 - Last BCP
3/05/2012 - Supression ultrasound and blood tests
3/07/2013 - DH and I take Z-Pak
3/08/2013 - Begin Dexamethasone, continue prenatal and start baby aspirin daily
3/08/2013 - Begin Microdos Lupron 10 Units, 12 hours apart
3/10/2013 - Begin Fertility Drug/Dosage
3/10/2013 - Begin Injections of Saizen 23 units (Growth Hormone)
3/12/2013 - Day 3 Labs
3/15/2013 - Day 6 Labs and Scan
3/18/2013 - Day 9/10 Labs and Scan
3/20/2013 - 3/22/2013 - Tentative ER
IVF with ICSI
Send off for PGS testing. FX!! FET 6-8 weeks later.
So there it is. I know plans change...but it feels good to have something down and in writing. :)
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