Suppression Appointment

I went in this moring for my suppression appointment. I was so excited going into this...ready to kick everything off.  From learning more about the meds we will be using, to our baseline ultrasound, to everything and anything. I was pumped.

And then - my heart sunk...when they saw a HUGE cyst on my left ovary.  Seriously? Why??? WHY?? I just don't get it.  We already had to wait 3 months for this cycle because of the PGS testing...now we might be delayed or even canceled?

I'm just waiting to hear back on my estrodial levels.  Hopefully they are so low that we can move forward as planned.  Look, I know plans change...it's the nature of the beast that is infertility, but can't I just catch a break?? I'm hoping we will just be delayed a week, but our RE office only does so many IVF with PGS each month...so we might be delayed even longer, depending on their schedules.

To make matters worse - We already have 2 trips planned for April and my sister is getting married next April...so I don't want to do a FET that would have a due date around then.  Seriously. Give me a freaking break.

BCP...Let's go!

Our IVF cycle that is.  I started on BCP pills yesterday along side baby aspirin.  I'm so glad we are finally at the point where we are in the actual cycle where our egg retrieval will happen.  Nervous? Yes...but excited nonetheless.

I'm trying my hardest not to let IF consume me right now.  I know the 10 days we will be doing stims are going to be hard, especially with everything going on at work.

Suppression Appointment is on Tuesday. Let's get this show on the road!

And so it begins...

Aunt flow came last night! Here we go...officially starting our IVF cycle. I'm nervous...scared...excited...anxious...and so much more. Mostly, I'm excited we are finally at this point and moving forward. For the past 3 months I've felt like we were in standstill waiting for this to get rolling.

In other news...working from home today because of Winter Storm Q. I'll be wearing my PJs all day. Good thing I stocked up on chili makings and hot cocoa....as did everyone in the area. The grocery store was a madhouse yesterday.

This pic was taking about 2 hours ago. We have twice as much snow now.

Worrying

This is something I have to continue to remind myself every single day. What is worrying going to get me? I have an amazing husband, 2 precious beagles and wonderful family and friends. It's important for me to look at the good inky life when so much is weighing down on us and our IF struggles.

Give me a BREAK!

So I get in the car to come to work this morning where I usually listen to Kidd Kradick in the Morning.  Love the show and have been listening to them since junior high.  I wasn't a fan this morning.  The first thing I heard was..."We went out and decided to celebrate we would start trying for #2 and that's the night this one was concieved." 

Are you kidding me? Great. Wonderful. People are so damn lucky. Hey, let's start trying to get pregnant and BANG...it's done...just like that. Wonderful that they had to share that to the entire world. Lucky me. Today is going to be grrrreeeaaaat. Happy Valentine's Day to ME!

Stress and IF

I can feel the amount of stress I'm going to have over the next few months starting now. With our retrieval in March and the launch of a new site at work, I really don't know how I'm going to manage it. DH warned me about this when we took the IVF step a few months ago, knowing the timing couldn't have been worse. We can't postpone because we don't know when I could be releasing my last eggs....ever month counts. Ehhh....I need a massage stat to help me relax.

Funny but true

My husband knows me well. Yesterday he sent me this awesome, hilarious but oh so true ecard. It took every ounce of power in me not to post to Facebook after seeing 5 people in a row (no lie) complaining about pregnancy or their kids. So frustrating.